Las Vegas is one of my favorite cities. It might be my most favorite city actually. My husband and I honeymooned there. It was the last place I traveled to with my Nanny and Pawpaw. If I didn't do a good enough job letting you in on why those two people were so wonderful, that right there is another reason. Ty and I planned a trip to Vegas, and they proceeded to invite themselves to come along. We had an absolute ball.
I was up until 5 am watching coverage of Las Vegas. I've walked that strip multiple times. I've been to the Mandalay Bay. As I found myself on my knees in my bathroom today I was just at a total loss of what to do other than scream to God and also to Satan letting him know that he loses in the end. "You've already lost, Satan, so why don't you jus save your energy. Jesus beats you!" I was, and am, so angry. So helpless. I know from my recent journey with grief that prayers are nice yes, but they don't bring your loved one back. You aren't suddenly happy about the person you adored beyond explanation being gone just because people prayed for you. I cannot imagine how any of the people who lost loved ones last night must feel.
Psalm 36:6 MSG is a verse that I love. It will be my next tattoo if I get a next tattoo. I recite it to myself often and found myself doing the same today.
"..Yet in His largeness nothing gets lost.."
I reminded God today that He could've stopped that horrific event last night. I just wanted to make sure He knew that I knew I guess.
If the last few years have taught me anything it's been this - I can trust God. It's hard to understand and harder to explain, but I do. I completely trust Him. I don't know what to do other than pray and trust and remember that "in His largeness nothing gets lost." I asked God to bring His name glory through this tragedy. I asked that people be saved. I asked that this be the last mass shooting that America has to experience. That the world has to experience. I asked Him to comfort people like only He can. I asked Him to please protect the people that I love while I cried because I know there were people at that venue last night whose families had prayed the same protection for them at some point.
People are dead. People are hurting. I am sad. I am confused. I am angry.
But God sees and knows and uses it all. He is victorious in the end.
Nothing gets lost.
He can be trusted.
